Hello, well its been awhile since I have written here. My friend Gabi just posted and I thought I should try this place again. I use Facebook now which seems easier to me than this. Well there are many changes happening in my life right now. After 12 years John and I have decided to get a divorce. It was a hard decision for us but now after 6 months of mediation and lawyers we are almost final. It is sad to write this down, I have told many people but now writing is more final. I am so happy now and free. It is so nice to not fight on a daily basis with John but to just deal with the kids and be happy with them is great. It is hard to be alone at night and have no one to cuddle with and pay all the bills on my own and be more responsible but it is a good feeling to know that I can do it.