We went for a carriage ride on Mon Dec 6th it was great fun, the plaza had hot chocolate, treats, free photo with Santa and Mrs Clause, it was a great cold and crisp Dec. Family night activity and it was all FREE!. The kids are getting so big I sure love each of them and I'm so grateful that they are in my life!!!

It makes me cry to know he is 10 now. I'm 40 and time just keeps moving on. I am so grateful for Quinn and all that he does for us around the house. Like putting up the Christmas tree and helping me decorate it. He is attending Scouts and plays piano and just received a neat remote control air plane and of course LEGOS what would life be like with out them. I just can't wrap my head around the fact he has been here for 10 years! wow. Its true time just keeps marching on and with three kids there is little time to notice that another year has gone bye! I sure love Quinn and I'm so grateful for him.

ThanksGiving, Dinosaur Muesum, Sloane, Aubrey, Callie, Kate, Quinn, Micah, 2010

I CAN do it.

My friend Jana said to me tonight when I called her after John left at 9 pm and the kids were crazy and crying and I by myself calmly prayed with them, put them in there rooms and said good night that I MNO did that by myself "ME" yes I can do it, it is hard but better. And now at 1 am I am still awake and jacked up on Diet Coke got up and turned the computer on. I prefer D. Pepsi and have built up a tolerance to it I guess and it does not keep me awake I don't know really. So I am trying to figure out this blogging and posting photos here. FB is easier for me. Sloane tried to take her lizzard to school with a pink yarn tied around its back legs on her bike. I saw hanging out of her backpack the yard and said stop, you are not taking the lizzard to school, she said all the kids like it. It was so cute that she has been taking it for walks in the back yard and thru the house. She is quite the girl. The night before she smashed a little bitty glass necklace that had gold fairy dust in it on the back patio because I glued it shut so she would not get it. Well she found a way. She is very determined kid. Aubrey is the youngest child out of 50 in kinergarten so I am hoping she will be ok this year. Quinn hates piano and homework and just wants to build legos.

Hello, well its been awhile since I have written here. My friend Gabi just posted and I thought I should try this place again. I use Facebook now which seems easier to me than this. Well there are many changes happening in my life right now. After 12 years John and I have decided to get a divorce. It was a hard decision for us but now after 6 months of mediation and lawyers we are almost final. It is sad to write this down, I have told many people but now writing is more final. I am so happy now and free. It is so nice to not fight on a daily basis with John but to just deal with the kids and be happy with them is great. It is hard to be alone at night and have no one to cuddle with and pay all the bills on my own and be more responsible but it is a good feeling to know that I can do it.